The world stood still when I said no for the first time, said the ‘yes’ manI got tired of being everything to everyone, no wonder I never gain weightI’m tired of being the go-to person to people that are never there for meIt took a while to realise that it is not the world that needed to change, it’s meThe world stood still when I said “this time I’m choosing me”
The words ‘me, myself and I’ were always foreign to meThey treated me based on how I treated myself, there’ve always put me lastI gave them fuel to chase their dreams, I was left standing there with an empty tankI’ve been drained for too long, my battery was low, they even took the jumper cablesI’ve postponed for too long what I knew I needed to do
I have given so much of myself to people that kept on takingI didn’t realise that I was a ticking bomb in the makingMy body will shut down one day and I’ll be at the mercy of the vultures“You can’t pour from an empty cup” said the people I’ve poured intoI did it all for them, they said “maybe you shouldn’t have”
So, today, I choose to forgive myselfFor staying for too long in places I shouldn’t havefor helping people write their stories while my page remained blankFor hurting others and for the mistakes I’ve made when I didn’t know betterI choose to forgive myself for abandoning me
I choose to be okay with being labelled a villain because I chose to keep my peaceI choose to give myself the life that I kept trying to give to everyoneI choose to heal from everything that wounded meI choose to put the past behind me, it almost destroyed meI choose me, over and over again, me.